Here's my take on denial when you are a using addict. I have had a lot of family members contacting me in response to my addiction blog and the eBook I have written and denial is one of the things that people struggle to understand.
When I was using drugs I was insane. I had to be to be able to continue to use.
When I drank and used drugs I would lose control. This would inevitably lead to me causing trouble in some way... crashing my car, making myself look silly, fighting with someone etc.
These actions then in turn cause shame and hurt. For myself and for all the other parties involved.
A normal person would look at this and be able to add one and one together and come to the answer of two. Obviously drinking and using drugs doesn't become me so I should not drink or use drugs right?
Well not an addict, not me. My way of adding was one and one equals five hundred and twenty two. So I should drink or use some more to block out the embarrassing incidents and carry on with my addiction.
And so the cycle continues.
It is essential for the addict to break this cycle of addiction and denial in order to recover.